Thanks for joining us and our family blog! I wanted to start writing a blog to help other Mothers out there that may be going through similar experiences my family and me are facing at this time. So let me fill you in on the details.

My Baby has just turned 3 months he is so happy and loves to try and do everything on his own. He is thriving! However I’m really not doing so great. But when you speak to a lot of mothers that is the case. Every mother struggles in there own unique and personal way. Every pregnancy and birth is very hard for that individual.

I never had an easy pregnancy or delivery. But what i want to talk about is PND! Postnatal Depression. I have always been a very happy person and I love life. Suddenly i had my baby and I got hit with this. It came very gradual to the point of where i struggle to get out of my bed and get migraine headaches that are to do with postpartum.

I try to tell myself I’m okay, that i can go out the house etc. But as soon as i try to leave i feel sick. If you have PND it’s not your fault! You can overcome this and in time you will look back and realize just how strong you are.

I can’t wait to do this! So i am taking a stand against this illness and writing about it to help other mothers. I want to write about both my good days and bad days. I’m hoping it motivates me to leave the house. I’m a religious person and it got so bad the other day i didn’t want to go to church because people where there. I didn’t want to be around other people. I went anyway because i know i need to go and take the sacrament. But it was so hard to get out of the car. Other people who have had this will sympathize with me.

My husband has been such a rock and support to me. We tried cognitive behavioral therapy but it just didn’t work. he kept saying ‘choose to be happy chloe’ and I was trying so hard to change the way i thought. It’s definitely a hormonal thing and women cannot help it. I have experienced something similar before when i had 3 operations for endometriosis and you just feel so low because of the hormones.

I will write honestly about everything to help others with what i’m going through.

I will also be posting my latest song that i composed about this problem. My deepest love goes out to people who struggle with this. But i know there is light in the darkest of places. ❤

P.S This does not make you a bad person or a bad mother! You cannot help having this, and i’m sure you never chose to get depression.

Postnatal depression is an illness and not a reflection of you as a mother ❤